And I'm at the half way point!!!

Technically I am only half way through my chemo regimen (3/6 weekly treatments done) and external radiation (13/25 treatments done) but I'm keeping it positive so I'm celebrating with a delicious Confetti Bundtlet from Nothing Bundt Cakes (I would have taken a pic but I shared with Nathan and he totally crushed it in less than 2 minutes).

My Monday chemo appointment went pretty well.  My platelet count has been decreasing each week (a side effect of the Cisplatin) but was still high enough to receive treatment.  I'm just hopeful that with Labor Day pushing my chemo to Tuesday next week, the extra day will help give my body some time to get some more platelets going.

So yesterday I had what can only be described as a total Ninny McNinnerson moment!!  Up until yesterday I had the same routine each morning.  Leave for work at 7am, arrive around 7:30am, go directly to my radiation appointment at 7:40am, and then head down to work by 8am.  However, yesterday morning I switched things up a bit and went into work early to take care of a study drug dispense that was happening early in the morning.  I arrived at work around 6:45am and immediately started working on the task at hand - ensuring a patient's study drug was ready on time.  I found myself back "on the other side" as the pharmacist taking care of cancer patients, the place where I feel most comfortable.  I was tackling a few issues and before I knew it my co-workers were arriving to work and we were starting our day.  Problem was - I had totally forgotten to go to my radiation appointment!!!  Fortunately, my AWESOME Rad Onc team called me at 8:20am to check up on me and to find out why I didn't show for my appointment.  For a moment during that call I was just stunned.  I explained that I had come into work early and that I had just plain forgot.  I apologized profusely.  They were so understanding and told me to come on up at 9am as they had an opening.  For several minutes after I received that call I really started to mentally beat myself up about this error.  I had went to my radiation appointment every Monday through Friday morning for two weeks straight.  How could I forget something that is so important?!  The perfectionist in me started the typical critical thoughts of "how could you do this", "what the heck were you thinking" and so on and so on.  And then I just paused for a moment.  I thought to myself about how much I have on my plate right now and how my life as I knew it completely changed just a few weeks ago.  I decided to forgive myself and to be grateful that things were able to be worked out pretty easily.  Of course, I also did a quick analysis to determine what I could do differently to prevent this from happening again (I've since added an alarm on my phone to remind me of my appointment each day).

Ultimately, yesterday's mistake made me realize how crazy things can be for a cancer patient and has only added to the compassion that I have.